Marriage

i always get the same response whenever i tell the my-mom-wants-me-to-get-married-if-i-cannot-further-study story, "don't marry too young la".
so what exactly is toooo young? haha.. during my secondary sch days..23 seemed reasonable.. not too young not too old.. just right.
my husband and i would haf so much fun.. he'd haf to eat all the junk i cook and accomodate to my weird eating habits. haha.. we'll travel around the world and enjoy ourselves as newlyweds.. and at 25.. we'll have our first child.. a girl.. and then at 27.. a boy. enough. haha.. i wanted to 'compete' wiht my mama.. but 4 kids, just too much for me. i'd go crazy.
my 2 kids would be in so much torture. i'd dress them up in weird clothes and i'll make them do star jumps during tuition. haa.. but all this would happen in my perfect world.. i dun expect much. :P i just wanna be a good wife and a good mom.
ok.. back to the age thing.. so im turning 20.. and 23 would be like 3 yrs away..i must be crazy to be getting married..there are still too many things to be done.. so when?
27? 30? 35??????
but i wanna be a young mom! i dun want to be old and wrinkly to see my children graduate from primary sch.
many people around me are gettign married between the age of 18-22 (mostly for the wrong reasons though) ! but there are also many who are still unwed at 25+++++++++++++. im nt saying thats a bad thing.. cause they are enjoying life and are pretty successful... im just wondering, still, what exactly is too young?

aiya.. study first la. i'll anticipate the unknown.. see what God planned for me in the future.....:D

tis the season to be jolly

falalalala..lalalala

christmas!! christmas!! its still november but im already tingling with excitement!

Moon people

whoo! moon people is finally coming to an end..its pretty exhausting man.. i mean its been late nights consecutively for the whole week. bet i gained weight with all the supper the free food and the CAKE.. haha..2 nights ago..fayanne syl alvin engmeng adz pqk and i went makaning at jalan kayu.. then we started chatting/debating about lots of stuff.. troubles about not having support and all when managing a team.. it all just seemed too familiar.. but i really admire neo and syl man.. i mean one is the vp of tpsu.. the other is the president of tppc..despite the humongous amount of stress put on them, they still handle it really well..
listening to alvin talk logic was enlightening.. haha.. nto that he always talk nonsense la.. but what he said really made sense..like how people shld be reacting to situations and blablabla.. aiya.. it'd be way too boring to elaborate.
musical was fun fun today.. haha.. helped out with the guys stage make up. and never in my life have i thought that i'd be putting on make up for kyle and uncle sam! wahahaha...kyle was like "not too red please.." and keep asking me not to conceal his moles.. cause there are just too many.. haha..
uncle sam on the other hand was pretty enthusiastic about it.. he wanted eyeliner..mascara and everything!! :D i mean its the gala night what.. who doesnt want to look pweeetty. :P
the buffet was fantastic! yvonne and i were having sooooooo much fun waiting for all the guests and vips to enter the auditorium so we can rush to da bao all the yummys. we were holding glasses and acting like socialites (like those in the musical) haha.. and then we were scurrying to the food.. packing and stacking the boxes. hehehe.. partners in crime man..
tmr's gonna be the last performance.. im so gonna miss the musical. :(

many people have been pinning high hopes on the volleyball(women) team this year.. this always adds pressure to me.. like what if we disappoint?
i noe we can be a very strong team this ivp, but we're not there yet.. too many personal thoughts and we're all individuals during the game. we're not a team YET. i really hope things would change.. i guess im waiting for a turning point.. lets work hard together alrights?!?~? its not gonna be easy... but lets fight till our backsides burst!!! doesnt make sense.. but u get the idea. :D

goodbye chinablack

yup.. china black was a huge disappointment today.. there were soooo lil people there!! hai.. must be zouk and momo stealing everyone away..plus the songs there are getting more and more -_-. however, i still enjoyed the night out with min jelly kelly bryan and some of xm and jelly's friends. wont be patronizing black anytime soon. heard its closing down at the end of this year anywayz. boooo!
went to meet alvin after..seeing him made me realise how much i miss him.. i mean i may not feel it that much when he's in ns.. but once i see him.. fainted.. i want him more.. haha.. i hate it that he has to book in at 6 tmr! sicko bananas.
ooh.. and i went for my very first hari raya celebration thingy today. was short and sweet.. but it seemed so much fun! haha..

love

I had found a kind of serenity, a new maturity... I didn't feel better or stronger than anyone else but it seemed no longer important whether everyone loved me or not--more important now was for me to love them. Feeling that way turns your whole life around; living becomes the act of giving.
Author: Beverly Sills

nuff said

dumbo.shitness

I MISSED THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! dammit dammit! was so excited and ready for sch man.. packed my bag and all (not that there are alot of things to pack la..but i still pack.. cause im a woman. haha) then.. i had to set the wrong time for my alarm. 9am i can set as 9pm (not that im bad with time.. its because im eve). thank you thank you.
thank goodness it was oni 1 lecture i missed.
went for my cousins wedding dinner.. gosh. the place was filled with doctors man! and when they welcomed the newly weds, it was not like "mr and mrs blablabla" (wasnt paying attention to the name la.) it was "DR AND DR blablabla" -_- i feel stupid.

anyways.. had a great chat with my first sec sch friend who's not from shps--> xm! haha..
finally told her what i've been wanting to tell her and im feeling super happy right now... i can picture us passing sandwiches again! haha..private joke. luv ya min!

shit load of stuff

i wanna have my own room
i wanna get a new digicam
i wanna get a new wallet
i wanna get a new make up bag
i wanna get a new brush
i wanna get my very own wardrobe
i wanna get a box to put my bags
i wanna get bags
i wanna get boots
i wanna get my debit card
i wanna get shoes
i wanna get stationeries
i wanna get new spectacles
i wanna go for my hair appointment
i wanna go workout
i wanna go tan
i wanna go facial
i wanna go out with my friends as much as i can
i wanna meet alvin
i wanna go school
i wanna go church

i cant sleep because all this is running through my mind. ultimately.....
i just wanna sleep!

Poly

finally i got a timetable that im happy with.. haa.. anywayz im pretty excited for next semester, taking biomechanics, biostatistics and medical imaging thingy.. finally somethign interesting to me. haha..
when dad asked me what i wanted to do after poly, i suddenly felt pressurized. i want to further my studies.. locally or overseas. i'd prefer the latter of course. but my mom is persistent that i stay in singapore.
and i cant bring myself to stick to my choice because lets face it, its gonna cost alot of money..
oh well, maybe i shld really just get married and produce babies. wahaha *hint hint* alvin.. *hint hint*

the thought of graduating and leaving poly sucks man.. i mean im gonna miss poly life soooo much! :(
people ask me if i regretted choosing my course (biomedical informatics and engineering).. yes and no.
yes, because i've always wanted to do apparel design..every now and then, that lil dream of creating my own label pops up in my head and makes me wanna give up everythign that im doing now to pursue it. but then reality sets in and i become really cynical bout the whole idea.
no, simply because this course is so small and cosy.. so fun and crazy. hehe..if i never chose this course, i would have never met so many wonderful people..if i wanna pursue my studies in this direction, i'd probably do physiotherapy.

production crew was definitely another highlight of my poly life. haha.. even though im not very active and until now am still a part time sub com, i had lots of fun! doing shows and meeting crazy people like eng meng huixin alvin neo and even fayanne.. :P i still know nuts about speakers.. what wire is for what.. oh man.. if not for syl.. i think i would've been out of it long long time ago..

oh man..im so gonna treasure the last sem man. go to school everyday just to be with my coursemates.. and study! hahaha..

Cough

dictionary defines cough as 'expel air from lungs with a sudden sharp sound'. as if. mine is like some stupid lorry with lousy engines..
been having many sleepless nights because of my cough. its so bad that my chest is starting to hurt.. really hope i get well soon before my lungs burst or something.. haa
ok halloween's over.. really enjoyed being in the costumes and all.. hopped from momo to zouk and then to chinablack. momo was bad and lousy still, music stopped like twice and the smoke was overwhelming. yucs. and not many people actually dress up.. then whats the point of partying on halloween night huh?~!` they shld all go home eat icecream and sleep.
zouk was way too crowded, it'd take a miracle to get in.. but the costumes there were damn cool.. zombies, warriors, egyptians, the mask, michael jackson, cross dressing and lots of demons and angels.
the night was still young and so.. decided to head down to chinablack. met noel daph and samuel.. daph was ultra cute la.. hehe with her horns, the buns and the kneehigh socks. :D
the night ended with ceasar salad and lots of warm water at swensens. and then.. it was another sleepless night with me and my cough.
now im alone in alvin's room.. he went swimming and left me at his house! faint. going night safari later!! ooh.. exciting! better wear my contact lenses.. dun wanna waste the trip. :P

-living in denial is never a good thing-