high

gosh.. i duno why am i blogging at this unearthly hour.. after 2 sleepless nights at chalet.. i went clubbing with kelly jelly xm bryan nick and gang at gotham penthouse. it was fun fun fun! it was really pathetic at the beginning cause of the crowd.. but after opening a bottle of whisky.. we started playing games and got really high.. too bad xm had to leave early..
music was great!! :D
anywayz.. halloween's around the corner.. definitely going to celebrate this year!! whoo!! gonna search for costumes tomorrow.. :D yipeeeeee

From the heart

its probably menopause or whatever..but thoughts are swarming in my mind. things regarding relationships, friendships, the future.. basically life.
i realised that i have different perspectives on things than other people.. and not many can understand..
the people who hurt u the most are those who are closest to you.. this phrase is so true because they are the ones who u expect them to understand how u feel..but when things go the other way u start questioning in ur mind "y are they doing this when they know i'll be unhappy" "do they really care?". im sure everyone have these private questions but not many people.. wait.. not many women will voice it out directly, however u expect people to comprehend.. read between the lines..cause we noe women think too much. call this stereotyping but i AM someone like that.
i never much display unhappiness when im with my friends because i love them and i care bout them too much.. despite all those pessimistic views in my mind, i always chose the positive. i always weigh the good over the bad because i still believe there's always a bright side to everything.
i think too much about how people feel.. how do i make them feel better.. so much so that i'd nt care bout what i want at all...im sure some of my friends do realise this about me..
i have an amazing ability to compromise, this is my strength but also one of my greatest weakness. because it comes to a point where u're taken advantage of and people just walk all over you.
i love doing stuff for people i love and care, i'd hunt down things that i think they'd realy like, i'd go anywhere if they need company..i'd cry with you, i'd laugh with you.. i just ask for one thing.. appreciation..
there's definitely a change in personality.. i noe what i am capable of but confidence is fading when there's not many people out there pushing you up, instead.. they pull u down.. till it reaches a point where u haf no goal and u instill the anything-also-can attitude.
there are also some who think very highly of themselves.. i do admire this people.. but when they are wrong and don't admit it but push it to someone else, i find it very disturbing.. however, it also hurts to realise that this people are the ones who could survive the corporate world.
i like people to be honest with me..criticism or whatever.. just not to the point of obnoxious.. just plain insult with no good coming out of it..

don't get me wrong, i still love my life and appreciate everythign that was given to me.. my FRIENDS, my family, my bf.. i'd give up the whole world for them..


esp my girls.. because i noe they are hard to come by.. and having friends who stand by you for 6-12+ years is really rare. and i love them more than anything..they're incredible.


alvin, one word comes straight to me..LUCKY. i was a naive and ditzy sec 1 girl who had a huge crush on a sec 3 guy. thank goodness he turned out to be great. :) he stood by me and has seen the darkest side of me.. thank god for him.


my poly mates..poly would never be as fun if it werent for you guys.. not many close heart to heart friends.. but im so thankful for fab, pqk, adz and sylvia! time really flies and i cant imagine wat'll happen when we graduate..we must keep in contact alrights~


my family is phenomenal.. i cant get enough of my parents, i cant get enough of my sisters. i get homesick when im away from home for 2 days..i have great cousins.. and its a pity that we are not as close to siyuan sihui and sihua as before.. if nt life would have been 5 cherries on a cake.

IVP

IVP's grouping for volleyball women

NUS
NTU
NYP
NP
TP

its gonna be tough.. but i believe we can do it! ivp here we come!! hehe..

k box

i can see a puny puny ray of light shining from our project.. hopefully everything can be done tomorrow..pls pls pls.. hehe
anywayz.. went k boxing with jelly kelly and xm.. its been a long time since i went for k sessions man..and i realised that.. i duno any new chinese songs!! haha.. i mean f.i.r 's lydia is still considered new to me.. alamak.. :P
xm was doing her renditions of rock singer with lots of passion.. haha..but she can sing damn well la..
went for supper at 85 after.. saw shawnie..long time since we chat man..really miss those tok kok sessions in class during sec sch..
oh wells.. now im home but my sis, vivien, is not! which means........ i can off the damn freezing aircon tonight and rest in warmth and comfort.. and i can watch tv all night long!
k la. i still miss her sleep talks.. hehe.. love u sis..

love u girls! :D

Ladies

Always look your best wherever you go because u never know who you'll run into. yupz.. ladies pls bear this in mind.. even though im like super lazy to dress up and all but i've learnt my lesson.. haha..
so everyone.. chant with me..pimples pimples go away! :D

Happy Bday Debbie!!

yeaps! you're 17 and still as crazy as ever. haha..but thats what i love about you.. so never ever change that orightz! hehe.. anywayz.. im just really glad to haf known u as a friend.. i mean. you're not onli a great listener.. but also a great entertainer! haha.. u just have that ability to light up the mood.. make us all go crazy with u.. hee.. this is so different from secondary school days man.. bet carol will agree.. haha.. but well birthday girl.. here's wishing all the best in whatever u do!! luv ya


the cake


the birthday girl


bottoms up!!


the aftermath..


Us

yeaps.. hope u enjoyed ur lil midnight havoc..

i hate sundays

hai..i hate to send alvin off at pasir ris.. so sickening.. i hate to see him change into his uniform even though it looks damn good.. haha.. argh! stupid ns..

i miss him already. oh well.. see u in 5 days!! meanwhile i'll just ogle at his photo.. muahaha

going for suntec's midnight sale tomorrow with the vb peeps after training! im so excited! hehe..

Happy birthday Shiwei!

saw quanwen today!! quanwen's my senior during the first three months in TJ..it was great seeing him..everytime i see them i'll think of the wonderful times i had during my stay in TJ. and it always made me wonder.. would my life be any different if i had stayed on? really really miss the orientations.. the mass dance.. the never-wanting-to-leave-school attitude..miss everyone! :) guess i shld just be grateful to have met such an amazing group of people!
anywayz.. its shiwei's bday today!! haha.. even though we never met after the jc days.. i like to think that we are linked in some ways. haha.. cause his mom is the director of engineering school.. so everytime i see her. i'll just picture his face there waving at me! wahaha..
watched into the blue with alvin today..we were at plaza sing and decided to catch the 620pm show.. but after lunch.. it was onli 3 plus 4? we walked around and around and around and we got tired.. soooo.. we went back to the car and rest! so silly.. but it was nice just having him around..:D anywayz.. onli one thing to say bout the movie.. JESSICA ALBA IS SO HOT!!
met up with carol jelly and fuad for midnight movie.. flightplan! movie was great.. company was great.. nachos sucked.
so that concludes my saturday.

Bad day

woke up and everything started to go really wrong. firstly something scary happened..not allowed to say though.. but felt really lost for a moment..
and im having this on and off fever thingy+PIMPLE OUTBREAKS! omg..seriously man.. suddenly overnight all pop pop pop out on my foreheard. went to see the doctor.. and he warned me about dengue! haiyo... i told my mom bout the hide and seek and she started nagging at me like crazy..and we all know if u get dengue.. u gotta fight it with ur own body system...i sure die can! haha..paranoia is taking over the world!!
hai.. but heck the fever.. im more worried bout the pimples! haa.. typical..putting on cream after cream.. drinking lots of water.. prayign hard that it'll just miraculousy disappear overnight. *cross fingers*. its funny.. dun tell me im going through puberty all over again.. haa..but hey.. that can be a good thing~! :P
aiya.. bet its some hormonal imbalance or stress.. ahhh!
watching TRL on mtv now.. gosh.. jessica alba is seriously too hot man..great body great personality great face with no pimples!

shoutout to my babes: LETS CELEBRATE HALLOWEEN THIS YEAR! together with ahem.. someones.. birthday?? hehe..

Enervated

phew.. vball camp is finally over..and im so glad i din cancel the camp cause of attendance. even though there were oni 8 of us..i had lots of fun! two things i enjoyed the most would definitely be the hide and seek with mistress... and the training on sat..
had my down moments during the camp though.. alvin booked out and it sucks that i cant spend time with him but anyways he did come and we had that teeny weeny bit of alone time together. hehe..
im gonna miss training camps man.. but im also realy glad that its over la.. no more plannings.. no more proposals.. no more uncle sam.. no more hassles. haha..
after camp had to go straight home to prepare for my cousin's wedding.. it was ultra fun! all my younger sisters were getting ready and the best part was.. I GET TO DO MAKE UP FOR THEM! :D so they would take turns for me to paint colours on their faces.. ended up not doing much make up for myself..haha
my cousin's wedding was simple and beautiful. they've been together since sec3 and he's 29 now..pheweet.. looking at their love story was extremely heartwarming.. but the crowd was not sporting enough.. the yum sengs were soft and lifeless and the claps were eh.. erm..pretty sad..but towards the end when most of em are high on alcohol.. they started to yum seng forever. funniness.. oh.. and i almost died in my heels..my thigh muscles were aching so much that i haf difficulty crossing my legs! fainted.

fun fact of the day: my cousin's (kenny) gf is actually alvin's classmate's sister! small small world.

hey mr postman

i've moved. blogger is going crazy and i just cant create any posts from my previous blog.. dumbass..
watched some discovery science thingy last night..it was about exorcism! gosh.. it scared the hell outta me. u see people with eyes wide open..screaming and crying and in a split second smiling wickedly. yikes... and then they continued talking about how spirits can possess ANYTHING on earth.. and there's this guy who could excorcise dogs.. cats.. beds.. sofas.. madness.
the whole show was basically trying to weigh the truth of the whole process with science and beliefs.
freaky..then i became paranoid.. like when i went down to haf a cup of water.. i was wondering 'what if this cup is possessed and suddenly splash water at me?!' haha.. ok lame.. but it got me thinking the whole night.