the end

its interesting how so many things can happen in just a few hours. lets just say i've understood alot of things and felt even more.
i wept for the very first time this year and it hurt the most through the 20 years of my life.
things hidden were suddenly unravelled and i realised what a fool i've been.
i finally understood the feeling of being helpless.
for the very first time i had anger and love all mixed together. if i were more emotional.. i would've jumped down the building.
i wanted so much to hug you tight.
i want to do so much for u but im powerless and incapable.. at least not yet.
im praying.. and i have faith.
there will be a better tomorrow. im gonna make sure it happens for you.


there..
my last entry.

-do not question-