*CRY AH*

i feel like a kuku head man!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhh! i called cosmoprof last week telling them i would go down to register during the weekends.. they told me there were 6 vacancies left.
so i got the money ready.. got my forms ready..i decided to give them a call to reconfirm the application, and they told me that the intake in july have all been filled. CRY AH!!!!!!!!!! july leh! thats like 3 months away! now im just hoping for someone to withdraw from the course.
omg!!! i have no one else to blame but myself. this sucks! all plans ruined! nez intake would be in sept till early jan. i'd have to take part time already if thats the case, cause of school. but i cant register for cosmoprof now cause.. what if my school timetable clashes with it?!?!`
and if i cant take the make up course now.. i could've applied for the april intake for fashion marketing adn management. OMG!
do not think about it anymore..ahh! gotta find another solution.
met alvin to run errands today.. when he saw me.. he knew something was wrong. told him bout the cosmoprof thing..gave me a lecture and asked me to stop whining. then i told him that he's not being supportive and what i need now is for him to say some nice things? haha.. but oh well.. lesson learned.
i stil believe in 'all things happen for a reason'. guess im gonna work for the rest of my holz.. by then i'll have enough to pay for the make up course on my own! whoopee.. that'd be nice.
alvin's lying on the bed now.. snoring.. with legs wide open and his big monstrous ass facing me.. i feel like the luckiest girl in the world. *i love u*