Mango tree?

now im at that point of my life where i really just do what i want. call me selfish or whatever but i think life is too short and you only live once. it may be a mistake.. but it'd be a mistake that had to be made to make me grow and learn. you cant always be in a comfort bubble and have everything nice. judgment is another issue. how will people judge me and think of me? how am i going to face the people around me? it sucks that this is something that bothers me. are they going to support my decision? are they going to question?
then again.. what am i really achieving through all this? is my life going to be better? there are lots of uncertainty.. the thing is i've been sooo 'protected' and taken care of for a looong time. i never had the courage to go out of the way to get what i want. so those questions that are going to be shot at me.. i just gotta solve it one at a time.
am i taking a leap of faith? am i dropping into an endless pit?
just feeling pretty messed up. i truly hope things will fall into place again. guess things will be different when school starts.
one step at a time.. things may get brighter. :)