tired.

i seriously think my body is overworked. i feel like im going to collapse any minute man.. its weird.. the most energy i had was during badminton session. haa. other than that.. i just wanna faint and zzz.
anyways. met up with ruiyi for dinner. everythign that i wanna get is unavailable man! my running shoes.. the anna sui eyeshadow..ahh! hai. now i feel kinda sick.. ruiyi.. izzit because of you?? hmm.. hahaha
redang trip's around the corner! oooh! im gettign soooooooo excited! :D cant wait for all the sea sports! all the fun that we're gonna have!!! hehe.. hope 'IT' comes this thurs. if not i'll be so depressed. :(
goodbye everyone. i need to sleep.

the tunnel of doom

once u enter, there's no turning back. anticipate the unknown and be really scared!
here's presenting hollywood's latest blockbuster the tunnel of doom. aka the sam-witch project.
starring rebecca tan, samantha tan and vivien tan
wahahahahaha. they are crazy.
real lousy quality..and may cause headaches. haha. but do stay till the end for a pleasant surprise of where the tunnel really is. haa.
i present to you, my sisters

:D

a night to remember............. :)

Officers

after listening to all the trainings they go through.. i really think officers are amazing. they can achieve thiings that i never thought was humanly possible.. haha.. im so proud of alvin la..his SOC timing improved from 11.13 to 8.05!!! tell me.. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?~! cant imagine the physical training they go through to be able to achieve this kinda crazy timing. he's going for field camp again nez week.. heard they have to dig a fire trench about 1.6 m deep within 12 hours.. 12 hours of soil digging.. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?~! haha.. i'll just dig my own grave..then faint and die inside. eeh.. choy.
sometimes i find it ridiculous that girls break up with their bf because of ns. with reasons like 'u never spend enough time with me' or lack of attention?? how are they suppose to spend time with u when they're in camp?~?~ haha
like alvin's friend.. his gf of 2 years broke up with him just like that...he was devastated man.. the worse thing is.. he cant even take a break. they still have to continue training despite all the heartaches. imagine what he must be going through.
haii..just feel so sad for those guys..
imagine an officer.. so masculine and suave on the outside.. but he's hurting so much inside. gosh.
but still.. who am i to say..ultimately in relationship, it still takes 2 hands to clap.

the day after

exams are finally over.. a new life begins! hehe..
so i spent the first few moments after exams fishing.. yup! went changi and fished all the way till 6am this morn. we caught no fish. thank you. but i did find a new love for fishing.
hmm.. so i woke up today.. feeling at peace.. i mean after all the stress from school we've been going through.. its nice to break free from all of it FOREVER.. ok.. at least until i decide to further my studies. for now. .im gonna stick to the make up artist plan. like what i told adz.. from this 3 yrs.. the most valuable lesson i learnt is to ALWAYS follow ur interest despite all odds. haha.
its weird how i dun worry about the future.. maybe im still in my comfort zone.. still lying in the arms of my mama.. guess i have to hit a turning point where i really see whats in store for me. one thing i know for sure.. i must not allow myself to become a lazy good for nothing. hahaha.. im gonna practise the habit of sleeping early and waking up early.. going to have a healthy diet..going to exercise and prevent myself from early osteoporosis. omg. haha. okie.. this new life shall start whenever im ready. wahahaha. for now im gonna give myself time to relaz and enjoy the ample time i have to do what i like to do.. meet up and chill with my pals and prepare for the redang and bangkok trip.. and maybe another one with the girls?~!?~ don't ever go without me ah! haha..
cheers to a new beginning!

kelly!

happy birthday to you happy birthday to you happy birthday my darling kelly! happy birthday to you.
hai.. it sucks that our exams fall on ur bday man.. hope u're having fun k! lets meet up soon.. ur present still with me remember? hehe.. love u gal! stay pretty and gorgeous always!!!!!

a tribute to bedok mac

exams commences today! hoo..been spending most of my time at bedok mac during study week... mugging like siao till sunrise on biostats.. glad my effort did pay off in the end.. biostats was finally do-able. haha.
i used to be the type where im better off studying at home. .cause i get distracted easily.. but bedok mac not only allowed me to have my own personal space, the sitting arrangements allowed me to get help fast so i don't lose my pace. haha. omg im so full of crap.
but there's one thing i find really weird about bedok mac.. there are always CRAZY people around. we saw a guy in a pink body hugging tee scolding a pair of mature working men in mac, accusing them of adultery or whatever. then i heard there was a guy who hit his wife and kids then took all his clothes off. (keep in mind all this activities happened within 1 m radius from bedok mac). lastly, a guy who pretended to be a police man with a toy gun and a fake id that reads "PoLiCe". he was confronting people who walked past him as though they did something terribly wrong.
who noes.. bedok mac may just be our gathering place after poly? haha
after the exams.. i swear im not going to eat mac for at least a month!

im really excited to graduate and start a new phase of life.. every night i'd paint a beautiful future in my mind before i go to sleep..
im gonna be a famous make up artist..going to travel overseas for work.. ultimately start a family.. haha..i noe i noe.. things may not turn out the way i want it to, but there's still a possibility right?~!
gosh.. im never ever going to forget poly life man.. met the greatest people ever, experienced things i never thought i would in a million years (ie. tp commercial) wahaha.
thank god for this memories. :D
im gonna hit the bed now.. sleep early wake up early study early.

almost gone.

what spurred me to create this post was a testimonial from pqk. "...you left that once-a-zany blog of yours with so much doubts, worries and sadness..."

i guess many of you must be wondering why am i not blogging anymore..and what exactly happened to me on 3/2/06.. im not allowed to reveal much though and some things are better kept private..:)
nevertheless, things have been looking up, like i said, a better tomorrow.
i was hesitant to create this post, and a little lost with the words..i'd be lying if said i didnt miss blogging. even though it's unnecessary and to feel the need to constantly update was such a hassle, but it did help me get through some tough times. like when i feel lost and alone, i rush to my laptop for blogger.com
it may sound silly but that was exactly what i did on the third of feb, with tears. i noe friends are always there to listen but at that very moment, u just wanna think on your own and not have any other opinions.
ooright..updates.. :D
1st things 1st, pqk and adz.. where exactly are you guys??? what have you been up to??we barely reach graduation and we're already drifting? i miss u!
exams are around the corner and guess ive not been studying hard ENOUGH. its the final sem, im gonna make sure i clear everything so i'd be all happy for the redang and bangkok trip!
this whole week was dedicated to the books but we had a lil break on tues. uh huh.. valentines. the day started with quite a few messages like "so bf can book out today?", "in need for a stand in bf?" (ahem..son?).. u get the idea. haha.. i even had "my condolences" omg..izzit really that necessary to have a date on vday? haha.. i had a blast with my poly mates at geylang! a place where people celebrate love! haa.. but i did still miss alvin's hugs and kisses and his big butt. love ya!
whilst studying, we were discussing about the future.. bout how we may never see each other again after redang.. the boys becoming men in ns..the weddings? just felt a lil regretful bout not treasuring this 3 years enough. im gonna miss poly soo much.
after exams.. gonna be free like nobody's backside. time to meet up pals!
-_- ahh.. its 530.. see.. blogging is bad for health..we shld all sleep early and throw our computers away.
all the best to all 'examinees'.

the end

its interesting how so many things can happen in just a few hours. lets just say i've understood alot of things and felt even more.
i wept for the very first time this year and it hurt the most through the 20 years of my life.
things hidden were suddenly unravelled and i realised what a fool i've been.
i finally understood the feeling of being helpless.
for the very first time i had anger and love all mixed together. if i were more emotional.. i would've jumped down the building.
i wanted so much to hug you tight.
i want to do so much for u but im powerless and incapable.. at least not yet.
im praying.. and i have faith.
there will be a better tomorrow. im gonna make sure it happens for you.


there..
my last entry.

-do not question-

PHOTOS!

HAIYO. im not going to take sooo many photos any more! i'll die before i send all of them to my friends...
so im uploading nice group pictures... my dear friends.. pls save them from here. thank you.